Monday, September 28, 2020

And I'm Back

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  1. Holy chit! You went through a lot! Thank Cod you have such a huge heart to keep pumping through all that! I'm so glad you recovered and are home with G and Miss Frankie. I giggled at your use of the F word because that's a word I use all too often but I don't think I've said f*ckity f*ck f*ck - yet. LOL! Love you, Grace!

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  2. From the peaceful feeling of dying -- and while I am glad you felt that peace, I am more glad that you are here! -- to the freedom of telling it like it is, I am here with you. I recently had a conversation with an aunt about enjoying her newfound voice and freedom (at the age of 76). It's something to look forward to.

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    1. There has to be SOME upside to getting old!

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  3. HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!! I thought you were absent because... well... just because you didn't feel like talking, either with your mouth or your fingertips. Now why the hell did you have GI bleeding, girl? An ulcerated spot in your esophagus or what?! And how the hell did you not know you had it?! Dark stools, weakness, headaches, pallor, shakiness, rapid pulse, shortness of breath... all signs of blood loss inside.

    Everything you've said in this video... I've thought & believed for many years. I swear to gawd we're sisters separated at birth, Grace. I had a near-death experience when I was put under anesthesia for my oophorectomy back 12 years ago. I wouldn't breathe on my own in the recovery room and I remember the nurses screaming at me "Keep breathing, Andrea!!!!!". I'd take a few breaths and then it felt so peaceful to stop breathing that I'd just... well... stop breathing and drift off. Then they'd YELL at me again to breathe! I didn't want to! I described the event to my husband after all was said and done & I described it the SAME WAY you described your experience here in this video. I swear! Peaceful drifting sensation... I loved it.

    Take care of yourself, girl. The world needs more old women like us. I mean who's going to tell people to fuck off if we aren't here to do it?!!!

    Love you too, Andrea
    XOXO

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    1. I don't really want to go into any more details. Now when people ask I just tell them I almost died and leave it at that LOL I need to get a cleaning service in and I spoke to one person who asked if I was in the hospital because of Covid - well, there's the good news - I tested negative!

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  4. What a powerful video describing your experience, thank you for sharing. I think the f**k it is a very healthy philosophy.

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    1. Hi Mary! Your lettuce is looking good - do those 'heads' get much bigger? Looks like you have just enough for a sandwich...

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    2. The lettuce leaves will get bigger and regrow as they are harvested. I've already pinched off a few leaves just to nibble on. It will be interesting to see how big the plants get. When I've grown the leaf lettuce in dirt I could make a cutting and have enough for a salad. It would then regrow so I could have a small salad every few days.

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  5. Hey Grace, terrible news, but a great vlog - l can relate to the slipping away sensation not through a bleed per se. But many years ago, l had a terrible car crash, my fiance and my 18 month old son had died in the car. My fiance lay dying in my arms suffering with terrible fatal injuries. My son thankfully didn't have to suffer that pain. One sad and bad day in November 1987 [17th] whilst sitting at a T Junction , a 40 footer slid on black ice and hit us - it was one of those moments when you literally see your life ending in slow motion. But l was laying there surrounded by death and l felt like l was dying ... l wanted to die, l was only 24 but my life stopped that day, l wanted to die, l could have allowed myself to die ......... but l didn't because the last words of my fiance were 'don't stop living Rory'. Those words penetrated back into my skull, and l started to live again. It's not the same as your bleeding out, but it is. A lot of things changed for me that day and it took me many years and many lifetimes of my own to finally say FUCK you world - l am just going to be me. I am glad you are still here Grace and welcome to the world of Fuck. It's a very good word that has a lot of depth, meaning, emotion and eclectic variety to it. Again, a good listen.

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    1. Ah, Rory - I cannot imagine the horror of that day for you, or even the sadness that must be with you still...

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  6. I came over from Andreas...good that you didn't die and I have said Fuck before in a hospital also...and I was not sorry I said it! :)

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    1. Why are doctors such shits and nurses are the the very best of the best? The woman who I blew up at was a "case manager" whatever the hell that is. In 6 days I had never seen her before, she didn't know jack about me and I had zero idea of what the hell she was talking about and she kept talking to me like I was a moron. So not happening...

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